Cloud nine, noun.
A state of perfect happiness (usually in the phrase: on cloud nine).
A feeling of extreme happiness or euphoria, feeling like you’re floating on air.
So, that’s what this is. Or at least, that’s what I’d like this place to be: a happy, positive place. Something that leaves you feeling good about yourself and your purpose in life. Whatever it is that you’re looking for, I hope you’ll find it here.
I, myself, am a woman in her twenties who has difficulties dealing with the amount of stress and expectations of today’s society. It’s not always easy to not freak out because you don’t know your destination or even the direction in which your heading. I’m average, very very much so. I don’t have the most beautiful face or the softest skin. I’m not skinny and I can’t eat what I want without getting fat. If I want money, I will have to work for it. I don’t have a boyfriend and I haven’t had one in three years time. I have failed in life numerous times. I have done things or bought things that weren’t something I wanted because I had lost myself. My heart has been broken by the people I valued most. I have felt alone and misunderstood. Yes, I have struggled more than I can count.
Nonetheless, I feel lucky. Lucky to have so many things that are worth to be thankful for: an amazing family that will always support me in any decision I make, a brain that can rather easily process an incredible amount of knowledge, great friends, good health and a wonderfull home to return to whenever I want. So… I must be happy, right?
It is not that simple. It’s never that simple. I’m not easily satisfied with myself, my accomplishments and my environment. I strive to become the best version of myself that I can possibly be. As a result, I don’t “just” want to be in love… I want to be head over heels in love. I don’t want a good carreer… I want an amazing and inspiring carreer. In other words, I want to make the most out of this life and every aspect of it but most importantly…
I don’t want to be limited by anything or anyone.
That is, however, the daily struggle that I need to deal with: the goals that I set for myself and the expectations from the people around me vs. my every day limitations. It’s a struggle that I’ve often lost but at the same time, it has learned me so much about myself and the world we live in.
In this blog, I’d like to tell you about my experiences, my set-backs and small victory’s. But if there’s one lesson that I’ve learned so far and that I want to share with you today, it’ll be that…
“Everything will be ok, as long as you love yourself.”